The Feeling of Existence
The repeated mention made above about “man feeling his very existence to be always at the present throughout his lifetime” makes it necessary for us to make some mention of the rationale underlying the use of the term feeling of existence. While we do admit that every one of us must have the feel of it himself, yet for clarity’s sake, we still find it necessary to forward a view as to what it is that makes us feel our existence, or have the “feeling of existence.” In logical terms, this is an apparently rational concept, because the very fact that man has come into being is by itself an assurance of his ability to feel his own presence. Please note that the “feeling of existence” discussed here is by no means the same as those feelings produced by our senses or emotional feelings.
What’s more, as far as the feeling of existence is concerned, there is no denial that we humans are simply inseparable from the other parts of this universe. This, certainly, gives us warrant to say that man does evolve from the various matter existent in the universe. Since the evolutionists dare say that all living creatures, including human beings, developed evolutionarily, they should also have the courage to admit that the feelings of existence present in all human beings must have originated from what nature has in it. Man is a combination of the various matter to be found in the universe, a combination to which he gives a particular meaning, just the way he gives the various objects, plants, animals their respective meanings by the way the various matter is combined. Despite the fact that the human molecules differ from any other molecules to be found in the universe, inside his body, however, all the matter that forms the various atoms such as electrons, *neutrons, *protons, etc. is no different at all from any other matter that exists in the universe.
Man grows bigger because of the entry of external matter into his body. The question now is, how is it that man can constantly feel his own presence, or feel that he does exist? If he has this feeling of existence, then the matter from which he is made up must certainly have its feelings of existence, too.
Let us discuss something else briefly, just as a simple illustration.
If we hit a marble against another marble of approximately the same weight, each of them will bounce back because they “feel” each other’s presence. Could such a reaction have occurred, if each had not “felt” the presence of the other?
To be able “to feel” the presence of the other, each of them should be able “to feel” its own existence. If it could not “feel” its own existence, how could it “feel” the presence of the other? Would it be possible for something that doesn’t “feel” even its own existence “to feel” the presence of others? How could something that doesn’t even exist “feel” the presence of others? By what means then does it “feel” the presence of others?
Does this not mean that, logically speaking, even objects have their “feelings of existence”? Here, it is obvious that objects not only “feel” the existence of others but they also “feel” their own presence. Though man evolves from organic matter, initially, however, he and all the various matter before us evolve from the same basic material, that is, the sub-atomic particles. As man is a composite of a variety of matter, each having its own “feeling of existence,” the “feeling of existence” he has is, therefore, a combination of the “feelings of existence” of the various matter. Nonetheless, the “feeling of existence” in man is obviously not at all the same as the “feelings of existence” of the various matter of which he is made. Given the fact that the feeling of existence of man is a combination of the “feelings of existence” of matters, man must certainly have more complex feeling of his existence than matters have of theirs. This is reasonable, because apart from the combined “feelings of existence” of the matter inside the body, there is also the life process. In a dead person, all of his physical body is a combined “feelings of existence” of only his body forming matter without the life process.
On the other hand, in a man who is in a comatose state or unconscious, or under total anesthesia, while the combined “feelings of existence” of his body-forming matter are still there in a life process, these feelings acquired from our senses, unlike those of a conscious man, are void of the cooperation of the senses, nerves and brain. Healthy people, thus, not only have the “feeling of existence” but are also “aware of their existence,” because they have senses and brains. How then could we feel or express the feeling that we have referred here to as the “feeling of existence”? Clearly such feeling having nothing to do with the feeling of the senses or the emotional feeling, all we can do here is to build our own assumption, even if this may not be quite accurate. All of us must have had the experience of being sound asleep; some may even have had the experience of being under total anesthesia. Have you ever noticed that although in either case you simply can feel nothing, you can yet feel the presence of your self between your pre-asleep and your post-asleep condition? You can in fact feel the “distance” between them. You will possibly feel this distance as a period of “darkness,” which can be either long or short. This “feeling of existence” can perhaps be analogized to something like “condition in distance.” While it is true that in our very being in such “condition in distance” we can feel nothing, “within that distance,” however, we can feel that “the distance” is there. It’s all because we have the feeling of existence. It could thus be said that “the feeling of existence” in inanimate objects or sub-atomic particles is more or less analogous to that “distance.”
It is because of our “existence” that we feel that we exist or have the “feeling of existence,” which has further led us to feel that we are constantly undergoing “the present.”
Now, if you happen to be one of those who don’t believe in the presence of “the feeling of existence,” what would you say should someone ask you this question?: “With which feeling do you actually feel that you are ‘always present’ and that you are always at ‘the present time’ the whole of your life?” Obviously, the feeling meant here is one that has nothing to do at all with your sensory feelings and neither does it have anything to do at all with your emotional feelings.
* To ease understanding we are still using the obsolete theory for sub-atomic particles. In the new theory, Leptons and Quarks are said to be sub-atomic particles.